Saturday, June 26, 2010

High school Camp


I haven't written here in a LONG time but I have been really busy so I am going to try and post about the last couple of weeks. :)

A couple of weeks ago I had the privilege of going to high school camp as a counselor, I had my sunday school girls who are so precious and are in 11th grade, along with an incredible co-coucilor. We brought hundreds of students and prayed for weeks and expected God to work in great ways. I had to be at the church at 3:45am and then we checked all of the students in and began the long trip which went good, since we didn't loose any students :). We hadn't been at the venue for very long when I was faced with some very difficult news about a girl in our high school group who was struggling with some serious things. I knew that the devil was already at work trying to discourage and test us before the week had even started. I began praying very specifically and frequently for that student and the hard issue they were facing. The week progressed after I heard story after story of huge hurts in the lives of these students, and then being able to lead them to the greatest and only Healer. I counseled with issues that I never thought I would ever encounter and subjects which the enemy was using to attack this generation. I was blown away each day at how the Lord specifically answered every single prayer and broke through the hardened walls of these students hearts and spoke to each need. One night the speaker began to speak on a subject and the tears began to flow from my eyes, it was the very subject that the girl I had been praying so hard for was dealing with. The Holy Spirit worked in such a powerful way that night and I was in such incredible awe at how mighty and sovereign our great Father is.

One of the highlights of my week was interviewing several of the men in leadership with my co-counclor about modesty. We interviewed and asked hard questions about what a modest girl looks like and acts like. This subject had come up several times earlier that week and we had given biblical council but also wanted the girls to hear from a guys perspective. It was a wonderful and eye opening experience. After several other of the leaders hearing about it we were asked to make an additional "Just for Girls" session one afternoon and share the interviews. It was such a neat experience to see how the girls eyes were opened up to how a guy works and how we can encourage our brothers in Christ.

There were many other incredible stories, moments of ministry and funny memories to share but too much for a post. Here is a picture of my group from camp.

A summary of this week= To God be the glory GREAT things HE alone has done!

Friday, June 4, 2010

Yearning for more

"I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, And in His word I do hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than those who watch for the morning, yes, more than those who watch for the morning." Psalm 130:5-6

This passage talks about waiting on the Lord, deep in our souls- expecting Him and waiting for His to come more than people who expect and wait for the morning. We know morning will arrive but we must get through the day first. In your life you may be hoping for a "morning" to arrive but you must finish "the day" first. Expect, wait, and look for God to act, but don't miss out on the day He has for you. Through all the waiting find hope only in His word (v. 5) which never fails. May you cling to Jesus and hope in His word as you finish this waiting season "a day" and yearn for the "morning."

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Trusting while waiting

Sitting in the hospital room looking at my beautiful Grandma sleeping, praying for quick recovery , healing and sweet rest. As I drove here this morning I was struck with the thought that no matter what age you are, there are seasons of waiting. When your young it might be the wait to graduate, the wait to get married, or the wait to have children. When your older its may be the waiting of grandchildren, waiting for your spouse's health to get better, or waiting and hoping for God to take away the pain and bring you home. Those are just a few seasons that were brought to mind as I rode down the highway this morning.

The wonderful thing about seasons of waiting is its a season of growth and learning dependency and trust in the Lord. Whether you desire healing or a husband, both things are in the Lord's hadsg and not ours. Our job is to trust in the Lord with all of our heart and not to relay on our common sense but in everything give credit to God and He will direct our paths (Provers 3:5-6).

Another thing we are instructed to do is cling to God's word for answers, and lean on Him for our protection. Proverbs 30:5 says "Every word of God is pure; He is a shield to those who put their trust in HIm." In your season of waiting are you putting ALL your trust in the Lord?

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Highways, Hymns and Hospitals

My Grandma was admitted to the hospital on wednesday night and had an emergency surgery to remove her colon and work on some other things. She didn't wake up from the surgery till saturday, so when we were with her their was no response. My mom was once in a coma and said that even though they are not awake they can hear you and its a comfort to hear your voice. So I went this week, pulled up a chair to her bed, held her hand and sang to her. At first I sang all the hymns I could think of and then some more praise and worship songs. Then I would read scripture and just pray over her. It was really hard for me because there is no response but it was really good for me to, because I had a sweet time with the Lord thanking Him for the hope we have in HIm. While reading one scripture verse I just started crying at the thought of eternity, death and the realization that we never know when that is and how important it is to be prepared. Its important to live every day in light of eternity. It has been a sweet journey to be with my wonderful Grandma.

I am exhausted due to all of the driving (takes me at least 1 hour each way) but holding on to hope and praying for quick recovery. If you haven't meditated on the thought of eternity I want to ask that you would take a moment and just think and ask the Lord to help you live your life in light of eternity, sharing the story of eternal life (the gospel of Jesus Christ) with others.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Heart Vulnerability

This post is difficult to write, not because of the words but because it is the most vulnerable post I have ever written, making it very hard for me. I believe as a follower of Jesus Christ I am called to be genuine and share what Christ is doing in my life and the seasons and molding He is doing in my hearts. That is why I have decided to write this.

As one of my friends reminded me the other day, there are many seasons in life, they are called seasons cause they change. The season of life I am is wedding season. Its seems like everyone is either getting married, married, engaged or about to be any day. For years I have said that I LOVE being single, and I really do enjoy this season of life, but that doesn't mean that I can't hope, pray and long for the marriage season of life. As the Lord showed me the other day, I can be content in Him, yet still feel a longing for a husband. The Lord has had to soften my heart to show me that its not wrong to feel real hurts and feelings. Sometimes it takes moments like that where our hardened shell is broken & humbled so that God can speak to our wounds.

The other night, after returning from a ministry meeting I arrived home and no one was there. I sat down and it hit me that my little brother was on his honeymoon, my other brother hanging out with his wife, my other brother hanging out with his serious girlfriend, and my parents were off together, just to name a few of my close friends. I thought, well I guess I will take this loneliness and just take the quiet evening to pray and read scripture. As I sat by the lake tears began to pour out from the deepest part of my heart, displaying something I didn't know existed. I was longing and desiring a companion like I have never before. I was pouring out my prayers before the Lord, feeling broken before Him, asking Him to be that in my life. When I was reminded its not unbiblical to desire a husband. In fact God created marriage and its a very biblical thing to desire and pray for. After being out there for a while my parents got home, as I was journaling I heard someone come up. It was my precious Papa, he was coming to sit and talk with me and asked if he could take me out on a boat ride. So we went on a boat ride on our lake and he let me talk, cry and was so compassionate and kind. Then he talked and prayed with me. My dad specifically prayed for my future husband and me in an incredible way. This was such a precious memorable time for me, as the man in my life poured into my heart and encouraged me in the Lord. I am so thankful for such a godly Father. I walked away from that time humbled beyond belief, because I was reminded of my prideful attitude of "I don't need a guy or want one" and how the Lord had shown me that in my vulnerability with Him, that the Lord has me in this season of growing and growing hurts sometimes. It was a healthy and wonderful time feeling something real and working through it with the Lord.

I wrote this not to make me sound like a girl who is dying to get married, because that is not what I am, I am very content on waiting on the Lord; But to encourage all of the other single ladies out there that feel the same way I do sometimes and feel like it is an ungodly way to feel. Sometimes our christianity makes it out like if you aren't completely satisfied, content, and not longing for a husband than you are not walking close with the Lord. I DO NOT believe this is true at all, in fact I think its a healthy stage of life to work through these hurts with the Lord, it doesn't make them totally go away but you grow in great ways through them. You can have an intimate walk with Jesus, being content in singleness yet desire and hope for marriage. That is completely normal and healthy. Just wanted to encourage some incredible single ladies I know that are in a season of waiting on the Lord. Keep seeking HIm, being vulnerable enough so God can soften your heart and mold & make you more like His Son.

Psalm 10:17
LORD, You have heard the desire of the humble;
You will prepare their heart;
You will cause Your ear to hear,

Psalm 5:3
In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice;
in the morning I lay my requests before you
and wait in expectation.

Psalm 33:20
We wait in hope for the LORD; he is our help
and our shield.

Psalm 130:5
I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,
and in his word I put my hope.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Wedding CRAZINESS



















Sorry I haven't posted in a while, life has been just CRAZY. My baby brother Tim just got married on Saturday so needless to say we have been in wedding mode for quite a few weeks. We had several precious family drive all the way from Wisconsin to come celebrate with us, so that was a special treat for them to stay with us. On top of family and friends coming in town, my AMAZING mom and I (and some help from our family) cooked all of the food for the reception( 350 people) and for the rehearsal dinner (50 people) on top of all the normal stuff. We had a blast at the wedding and are BEYOND excited about their union together in marriage. God truly wrote their love story, and it is so encouraging to see Him leading and blessing them along the way. Rachel is a huge treasure to our family and I am so grateful for a sister-in-law who loves the Lord, her family, and TIM :)She will be a great help mate to him as they journey through this life together.

The ceremony was beautiful and I was not planning on crying, but when Rachel walked down the aisle and Tim began to cry I lost it. What a precious time it was as they exchanged vows before their dear family and friends, together taking the covenant of marriage. A sweet song called "home" was sung, with words talking about no matter where you go, where you are is home.

The reception turned out pretty good as well, with the highlight being Tim singing his original song that he wrote for her. It was a complete surprise to her, and she cried as he played his guitar and sang of their love. Some of the words are this " 1,2 all that we need is just me and you, everything will be alright, be just fine forever, every day will talk and we'll pray just the two of us, nothing but trust, what God has formed, let no one come between you and me..................."We have come as two today, and we will leave as one." It was PRECIOUS! Then they drove off to have a honey moon on the cruise.

After the wedding a bunch of my family and friends came to party at our house. All of us younger people :) took a trip to star-bucks, then remembered the next day was Mother's day and made a trip to wal-mart and publix to get our gifts. We had a lot of fun in the car dancing and just hanging out. Then when we got home we ate (again) and had a dance party out side by the lake. We had a lot of fun but everyone didn't' leave till 2am so it was a long day for all of us.
It was a huge blessing to have all our dear friends and family in town :)

Mother's day was wonderful but we weren't recovered from the wedding and still had guests in town so it was not a normal celebration. But I certainly do have the BEST mom in the whole world. She is truly my hero and friend. She not only teaches me about the Lord, but she leads with her example in every area, whether its being a godly supportive wife, being domestic and taking care of your family, mothering or mentoring she is just amazing! I am truly a blessed girl.

Overall it was a wonderful weekend with great memories, however I am still exhausted, and not at all recovered.

Sorry about the random thoughts that are not very organized but at least its written. Here are some pictures from the weekend.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Loving on the Least of these



“Beep Beep” My alarm went off after what seemed like a very short nap. Rubbing my eyes, feeling exhaustion sweep through my body, I turned off my alarm and opened the curtains. This was our last day in the city located in the mountains of Ecuador which had been our home the last few days. The sky was the clearest it has been all week and the sun already was shimmering across the lovely vivacious pink flowers right outside my window. After getting dressed, packing up and getting our nutrients for the day we all gathered in what we called the “upper room”. It was in this room that earlier this week the team practiced humility, servant hood and leadership as we washed each other’s feet and through tears prayed over each other.

This however a dear couple who had become so close to all of our hearts was sharing their story. The missionaries Daniel and Anna had a very special story of hardship, waiting on the Lord, and their life’s journey of finding treasure in the Lord and not in earthly things. “How long have you lived” Daniel asked a lovely teenage girl in the front row, “eighteen years” she replied. He then responded with the question “what have you done in your eighteen years?” and began an incredible challenge on living life with a purpose and passion of Christ; He reminded the captivated audience “each generation is responsible to bring the gospel to their generation.” In closing he asked the adult leaders to come forward, and asked the students who felt the tug on their hearts from the Holy Spirit to surrender their life for the purpose God had for them, to come forward and grab a leader. Shortly after this request, two of my beautiful young ladies I was privilege to have in my group came and grabbed my hand. After a long talk, tears, prayers and challenges, they both had told me that God was working in their hearts to surrender their lives to missions. What a huge moment. In their hearts they had heard the call of God and surrendered to, asking for voices of encouragement, wisdom and accountability for the task ahead. God has something special for this lovely ladies and it was a privilege to see the beginning of a great work in their precious hearts. This was a start of a beautiful day, seeing that it was only 10:00 AM at this point.



After the team photo, the group was split into 3 buses- orphanage, sight seeing and nursing home. I had no idea what was in store as we prepared to be the hands and feet of Jesus and love on the least of these. Heading to the nursery home I didn’t know what to expect but was excited to see what the Lord has in store. We parked and then walked a couple of blocks till we arrived at the location. Walking up the concrete stairs, the air was filled with the scent of laundry and cooking. We were greeted by several little old ladies, giving us a smile and a kiss. As I walked from the kitchen I arrived into a much larger room, where a woman with dark skin as leather, with little to no teeth sat hovered over a bowl cutting and eating bits of apple. I attempted to converse with her, but it seemed as if she was unresponsive. To the left other sat a hunched old woman, with gray hair, little and saddened eyes, who sat very still. I go on my knees beside her, gave a quick hug and once again tried to speak with my broken Spanish. She replied and I beckoned one of our students who spoke Spanish to come and help me understand what she was saying. Now, I was holding her hand smiling, nodding as if I could understand and grateful for the precious young man who was helping me. She first asked why we were here and then began to scold both of us for not wearing sweaters, just like a sweet grandmother. She kept caressing my face and hair, squeezing my hands and telling me that I was beautiful. She then asked us to play some music and sing I had to prepare and the program started, but dear Abraham stayed by her side the whole time, showing how much he truly cared.

During the time where the Pastor was addressing all of the gray haired, the manger of the home pulled two of the girls aside and asked them to follow her somewhere, so they grabbed ma and a translator and we followed her up a high flight of stairs. As we entered this small room immediately our nostrils were filled with a foul stench, as we saw this crazed elderly woman on a bed, covered with tissue of some sort, with a nametag on the wall above her. The kind manger explained that she is a mean bitter old woman, who cannot speak anything understandable. She was lost in her own world- a small room where she did everything and never left. I then asked her if she would like us to sing a song, as she gave the go ahead we began singings’; “Lead me to the cross, where your love poured out, bring me to my knees Lord I lay me down…” As we ended a huge smile hung upon her face as we once again individually wrapped our arms around her, giving a warm hug. This was a raw experience where I was overwhelmed with joy as I watched our students love the least of these.

After we joined the group they began to serve beverages and a cake we brought with us. With huge smiles a couple of the students asked for permission to bring that special treat to the bitter old woman in the room up stairs. It was precious to see them sharing Christ’s love by serving the physical substance but sharing with them about the only thing that can fulfill your life.

My eyes once again caught the old woman I had talked with before. I saw Abraham feeding her the special cake and saw that his eyes revealed a deep sorrow in his heart for her. Once again I got on my knees and held her hand. Then helped finish off feeding her the cake. She asked if I was married, and told me again how much she loved my hands and thought they were so soft ☺. The next sentence I couldn’t get, Abraham who was interpreting the conversation, had tears rolling down his cheeks. After taking several moments he told me that she had told him that she had no one. All her family had died, no one ever visits her and that she was all alone. She told him that we were a miracle of God, and she didn’t want us to leave. Her old, distant and sorrowful eyes were filled with tears as she tried to understand why we couldn’t come back and see her. She was saddened by the thought of being alone again. We hugged and kissed her, Abraham still shedding tears, mine flowing as well. As I asked to pray for her, through tears I asked the Lord Jesus to watch over my new friend one more time before we walked away. My heart was crushed by her loneliness, sadness and hopeless. We had shared Christ and told her that if she knew Jesus that one day she would see us in heaven. God burdened my heart for all of the lonely hearts in this world that live life with no hope. They need the only Hope and satisfaction, which is salvation in Jesus Christ. That was one of the many stories from the trip, which compel me not to keep the gospel to myself but to share the good news to others. May the Lord open our eyes to see the needs of people around us, and give us boldness and compassion to share HIM with them